I’ve become superman!

Can you find better example of being humble than this title?
Of course you can, but, who cares!?
Ok, I’m going straight to the point. While ago I’ve said, that maybe I’ll write a little bit more about me one day. This day is today.
After some dramatic and traumatic events that took place in my life (which began about a year and a half ago and did not leave my thoughts for several months back from now), I finally found peace.
Someone may ask – What I mean by dramatic and traumatic events?
After few months of marriage, not even half year my wife (now ex-wife) asked me can she go on disco with her friends (all of them have husbands as well and it had to be something like “girls evening”) so I said “yes, no problem”.
She met there a man (which is nothing really special at this kind of places) and now comes the best part.
Are you ready?
She felt in love at first sight!
How sweet… more you can read here https://wp.me/p8FnFG-Au
Since next day she was behaving different, so it wasn’t hard to see she started to smile to phone while reading messages and texting all day long.
I was trying to find out what’sgoing on, she was saying, that’s nothing going on.
Until one day she told me to move out from house, sheis in love and she doesn’t loves me anymore and so on. It was like thunder from te sky.
As nothing comes too easy and I used to love her I was trying to save this marriage, trying to talk with her and keep in touch.
She was telling me, that she is possessed by the devil and she was acting like this I’ve called for my good friend who is the priest and he came as soon as possible from the other city which is few hours drive in one way.
He said, that with experience, which he have it’s not possession.
I was also consulting with psychiatrist, psychologist, all for nothing.
She tried to commit suicide several times. We already haven’t living together at that time, but as a husband I was informed about those situations.
This is what I’m calling dramatic and traumatic and it really goes deep into mind.
I used to self employed but this situation has surpassed me, totally.
I couldn’t take care about myself and what to say about managing the business.
I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t think rational. Unmanaged business generated losses. Before all this situation I bought more goods than usual because the time of Christmas shopping was approaching. But ultimately, I did not sell anything, I had no head for this. All this situation and led me to end the business.
When finally, I recovered from the worst shock, my mind was still full of bad things, bad memories etc. Nobody cares about your situation and you have to pay for everything, food costs, house costs, everything costs and only air seem to be free of charge.
I needed to find a job and needed to cut myself off from problems.
In other words, I needed a job where there is no time to think. This is how I’ve started to work on car wash.
Car wash is trully this kind of work where even an complete idiot can find a job.
And seriously there are some kinds of work where you can find low intelectual developed people, just idiots. Those idiots make opinion to all who work in this kind of jobs.
Anyway, there is few month left and I’ll pay off rest of my debt and because I’m feeling good now it will be good time to get back on track and rebuilt my business.
How this situation changed me? Well, I simply care less about anything.
So many things doesn’t matter, so many things are not going to shock me now. I mean, you can still surprised me with something, but it will be nothing really special.
For example the friend of mine texted me few days ago, that she lied to me on some issues by last six years. I’ve only asked – does everything is ok?
I’ve ask this question because I’ve learned, that people confess things like this when something happened. She had mental brakedown while ago.
Yeah? Me too. Now it’s fine.
I signed up on some dating sites but didn’t date with anyone. I guess people over thirties are not in a circle of interests or I’m just too ugly to date.
I have heard many times what kind of man girls and women want to have and it seem that I’m perfect. Well, not really. I’m perfect friend, not even considered as partner.
Yes, nice guys ends in friend zone before anything even started. Girls and women like to complain on their men but when it’s really good, they simply get bored and start to looking for attractions.
I used to consider girls and women almost like an angels or nearly I couldn’t be more wrong, they are just the same as men. Which mean, that maybe somwhere on this planet is a girl a lot like which will appreciate to spendtime together nice, to talk about the problems instead of hiding it or aruing, who would like to travel together to interesting places and being honest about what she like and what she don’t. Is it that hard?
I would like to find a girl who will appreciate that I’m honest, that I’m telling what I like and what I don’t like. I would like to find a girl who will appreciate that I’m not a jerk and have no problem to cook or to wash the dishes or clean the floor etc. I’ts really not big deal. I would like to find the girl who will enjoy to have a massage and have no problem to massage me too, because it’s really nice and relaxing and you don’t need to have special knowledge about it, you don’t need to use strenght for it, because nice, gentle, delicate massage from your beloved one is the best relaxing thing.
Of course you can go to a professional massage studio but it will never be the same it will never give you this atmosphere what you have while with your beloved one.
Does anyone know what I mean?
Who cares?
Sometimes I think, that people freaked out. What values count today?
I have no idea, money? number of followers on social media? number of likes under your selfie? subscribers on youtube?
It is nice when you see, that other people like your ideas, but it’s not a value by itself.
Doing something for likes or attention is stupid.
I used to be on some page about youtube to share my videos, but what I saw there wasn’t even stupid, it was idiotic. People there are asking other people to subscribe their youtube channels it’s called sub4sub. I’ve wrote a post there: watch and let me know what do you think about my video and I’ll do the same in return.
What kind of feedback I got?
“I’ve subscribe to your channel, now you subscribe mine”
So I had no other choice than write the answer.
“Probably you have the problem to read with understanding, so let me make this clear – get the fuck your subscribtion and get the fuck out from my channel if you are such an idiot”
Yeah, this shows how nice guy I’m.
When you start to work with idiots, sooner or later you will see, that if you want them to understand what you want from them, you have to use their lingual level.
And I don’t give a shit about this. I’ll not try to educate them.

Ok, now, why I wrote I’m superman?
Because I care about many things much less than ever before, because I’m free, because I let myself to do many things, that I haven’t doing it before, because I don’t care about other people opinion, because after disaster many things became so small.
Now it’s like be yourself, free yourself, do it your way. You don’t have to follow the rules when you see they are not work for you. Use your life, don’t waste it.
I don’t drink, I don’t smoke, I’m not using the drugs and I’m using my life as much as possible without hurting myself and anyone around.
I’m doing what I like when and how it’s possible, I’m not forcing myself or anyone else to do anything. You have your mind, so use it. This is what it is for.
Think and enjoy from smallest things in your life.

Have a nice day 🙂


Original classic

Original recipe is kind of guarantee for success. Original, classical, traditional, all those words mean something like “if you will follow instructions, you will recive the same thing what creator of this thing” . If we are talking about food, then original recipe is the way to recreate the flavour. Such a great achievement, I’m impressed. If it will be about any other thing, original recipe will make things works. This may lead to providing standards, which is comfortable. People from nature are lazy, so they like to follow for something what already is made by someone else. Laziness makes, that people don’t like to leave their comfort zone, so sometimes people prefer to arguing to keep something without any changes than try new things.
For example, let’s say, that I will make “tiramisu” with cacao insteead of coffee, for many people it will be like a blasphemy. If I will ask, why I can’t replace it, the answer is, because you can’t, because in original recipe is coffee, becuase it’s traditional.
They don’t even try to accept it, that I may prefer cacao 🙂
Original recipe is to keep uniqueness, but when everyone is using the same recipe does it still unique?
It’s very smart to keep original recipes for things, that works, but it cannot stop us from creativity, from trying new things.
For original lovers: don’t be affraid to try different ways sometimes, it doesn’t mean to leave this what you like so much.
For those, who think original means boring: it’s good to find out why it’s respected by other people, maybe you will appreciate it too.
In both cases it’s going out from comfort zone, which is like entering on unknown teritory and on beginning it may provide anxiety, adrenaline and excitement, but after all, it’s brings new experience and helps to discover yourself from different perspective.

Have a nice day and take the challange of leaving your comfort zone. 🙂

New Year’s list…

New Year seem to be a great moment to make a list of things to do, or things to avoid, to set challanges to ourselves etc. My suggestion is: find your last “New Year’s list” and check how many point from that list you’ve maid. If you completed all, it’s probably great and you can be proud of you, but if you did not, then it’s may be a good idea to find out why you didn’t completed your own list. Sometimes it’s good to write your goals with smaller points and do it day by day. Even when you put this list on the wall, after few days/weeks it will become a part of wall and nothing more, so it’s good to refresh it often.
Find out what is really important for you and what was important for you a year ago and two years ago and so on, to find out what is really important and how our priorities are changing.

Happy New Year, but not only this one day after New Year’s Eve, but the whole year 2018.

Happy New Year
Szczęśliwego Nowego Roku
Gelukkig nieuwjaar
Felice anno nuovo
नया साल मुबारक हो
Godt nytt år
Frohes neues Jahr
Bonne année
С новым годом

Shrinking food

Have you guys noticed, that time to time food producers are deciding to shrink their products? The latest example is the chocolate, before big chocolate was 300g now is 270g of course with the same price as before. Regular chocolate before had 100g, now it’s 90g and also keep the same price. Maybe 10% is not a lot, but what is this for?
Choclate is of course not the only example, before it was butter shrinked from 250g to 200g (which is 20% of previous weight) and some other articles.
I guess they just care about us, about our health and weight control, smaller product with higher price should help us to keep fit what often is the goal of our times.
Thanks to all producer who care so much about me and the other people, I really appreciate this.

I’ve also deided to make some changes and to nut put everything here on this blog, yesterday I’ve opened a new blog where I will upload my videoclips productions and maybe drawings time to time and this one will be to write my thoughts and maybe some personal things and journeys.

New blog: https://ytmanipulator.wordpress.com/

Merry Christmas!

The power of value

Have you ever wonder what is the greatest power in the entire World?
I think it’s the power of unity. United people can be unstoppable force…
But I don’t think is possible to unite humanity. We all have different values and for some reason it’s very hard for us to reach agreement or at least compromise. There always will be some people, who would like to rule and dictates conditions to the others of how to live and what is right or wrong. Those who desire power will do what they can to keep people (societies) divided. The reason is simple, when society is divided then is easier to rule. Divided society is just weak, not speak with one voice, not demand changes for better living and is easier to be steering by rulers. Divided society fighting against each other in effect of manipulation, without searching for logical solutions and compromises.
If I will ask, what is most valueable for you? there will be different answers, this is one of the reasons why we have to live in some compromises and respect to each other as much as selfrespect. It will also help to not abuse other people. Sometimes we by ourselves agree to being abused, because of the situation, because we want something.
Why we have to work? To live? To pay for food and for a house? To pay for anything?
So we are selling ourselves, because someone said so.
Why we have to pay? Because someone said so. Because someone made the rules, which had to be fair. But where it leaded us? What does it created? Greed.
Yes, yes, I know, money are needed for many reasons and they are easy to calculate value of everything. But is it really “of everything”? Does everything is on sale?
Money and other things are worth only this what we can give for it.
You want to find what is the real value of oney, then take as much as you can and go there where is no other man lives. Then you will find out what your money gives to you.
People are the power and the value, but we forgetting about this so often.
Respect and take care about people. Do you respect yourself? Do you want to be respected? How you want to be treated?
Of course I’m taking money for my work, but it doesn’t matter for me, how much I will earn, I will always do my best. Why? Because I’m doing it for the others and I will not do something what can harm someone.
Ok, World is not perfect place, because of our weaknesses, ignorance and arrogance.
Some people think, that they are better than others, some other think they are worse.
But we are just different. I know that some people are sick, violent, have mental problems, but this is not the point. The worst situation is when those people get the power to rule, then bad things are happening.
So what we can do? We can unite, at least in some particular things.
I know, this what I’m writing is like utopia, but do we really like this World how it is?
Cannot we make it a better place? Everything depends from us, not from U.S., but from US, us people.
How will look any reform, country or anything without people?
How will look war when soldiers from each side will refuse to fight? There will be no war, because who will fight? Our great leaders? No way, they are only strong to tell us what to do, how to live and to send soldiers to the front, to kill each other.
Are we so different to kill each other? Are we the enemies to each others?
Are we really so different, that we can accept it and live together on same planet? Is it really so hard? What is wrong with us?
Only rulers wants wars and convincing people, that it’s good. So if the rulers want to fight, let them fight with them selves, but let people to live their lifes.
What kind of reform will work without people? Only people are the factor which make the difference and things to work, not empty words and promises of politicians.
We, simple people, nations, societies, we have the real power, but we give this power to our governments…
We want governments to work for good of people and nation, to live in the place where is justice and where we can feel free and be happy. But because of some people we can’t enjoy it, as much as we should. There is always somone who brings oppression is it government or criminals or boss at work, who want us to work faster and longer and it will be the best if we will work for free…
Do I think my post will change something? I don’t think it will change the World, but maybe it will make that some of us will start look different on some things in life.
Maybe some will think a little bit about this what is valueable and accept, that for someone else, it can have different value. However it dosen’t mean to not respect values of others.
No matter where on this planet we live,we can be different, but we are not the enemies.
Let’s respect each other, it can make a big difference.

A few words that can change your day

“Nothing to lose” it’s not exactly what it seems to be.
People quite often like to say things, just because “that’s what people saying” or because “it’s sounds good” etc. like “I’m so depressed” or “I have nothing to lose”.
But what if you really think, that you are in the situation when you have nothing to lose?
It mean you are so wrong. As long you are alive you may have much more to lose than you think. It can also mean, that there is nothing left what you care about, which can show how bad your situation or your mood can be. This is the most common, when you just feel like you lose your life and there is nothing you care about. If that will make you to make some actions, which you always was affraid to do it may bring unexpected positive effects and bring back meaning to your life, or even raise you up to a higher level of your life.
The same situation bring the risk of making terrible mistakes. When you feel like everything is meaningless and pointless, you can start do things, which can really take you down.
When you will think, that you have nothing lose, because of your bad situation, then try to think about something else. It’s just to make a break and catch at least a little distance and maybe you will be able to look at the same situation from a different perspective, which can change a lot.

Forcing yourself – when it’s good and when it’s not

When it will provide positive consequneces. I like to go straight to the point 🙂
For those who would like to read a little bit more about this, here it is.
Why to force yourself to do anything you don’t want to do at all?
Because life is not about doing nice and pleasent things all the time and sometimes we simply need to do things, which we would like to avoid.
To live. We don’t have to do things, which doesn’t make us to live. It might be different things like eating, cleaning (yes cleaning and it’s important thing which can help you to stay healthy), working, etc. Ok, you may have a job you like and enjoy, you may have a house keeper and you don’t have to clean anything, so I gues, you’re the lucky one.
But even then it’s good to force yourself to do the hard things, just to appreciate this what you have. To change the point of view.
The other case is when you are doing something creative and it’s doesn’t matter is it part of your job or just a hobby, then it’s good to not force you to do this things when you don’t feel it. It wont be as good as it should be. Then it’s good to do different things, to make a break, to relax, or change enviroment.
When it’s happening for a long time and you feel it as a long time is good, because it’s mean you miss for it. Then you may try to force yourself to do it again, to feel it again.
But it have to be “you” by yourself, don’t try to be someone who you are not.