The point of view

Sites like this gathers people from around the World, which make easy to see so many points of view over other people, countries, nations and much much more.
Recently I had read some posts let’s say about points of view over different places.
We are often running to generalization and stereotypes and Mandy from thebrokegirlsguidetobetterliving blog (yes, it’s long name of the blog 😉 ) wrote really good article about stereotypes over Canada and Canadians. Here is the link:

I had heard about a lot of different things and stereotypes about countries and about people as well. When I’m traveling to any country and talk with people it’s like quick verification of things I had heard about with reality. In other words traveling is something like: stereotypes meets reality.
Especially when it’s about big country, you can hear a lot of stories, how many of those are real? Probably only few of them yes, but the most is just empty words which have been repeated by people who even doesn’t know nothing about this country/people.
It’s like, when you are not sure about something and just heard some story from someone, do not repeat it until you find out how it really is.
When you know someone is from country you would like to hear about, it is quite possible, that this person can tell you only about own city/town and family and friends, maybe few known places from the country and that’s it.

What else than stereotypes people can say?
Whatever I’ll say it will be only in my name, my opinion, nothing else.
The other interesting thing is, that stereotypes are often about minorities. The special minorities, which are noisy, behaving in the way, that make them easy to see and by this creating view of all, which is wrong.
Have you heard about Compton? Here I found nice story with Compton in the background, just on Rosie’s blog Floridian Lifestyle, here is the link:

Who you will remember better, someone who is just going to work and back to home, doing shopping, have own hobby or just relax at home after work or someone like mentioned before?

Probably our mind need to create an image of things we don’t know, of places we’ve never been before or is it a blank space in our head?
If I’ll say Italy, Norway, France, Germany, Poland, Greece, USA, China, Canada, Russia, what will appear in your mind?
Wherever I was, I always had heard, that I’m so exceptional, only because I didn’t fit to some stereotypes and imaginations. I also have heard a lot of things about people living in some countries and I could say about everyone I’ve met “exceptional” only because they didn’t fit to stereotypes I’ve heard.
When I meet someone I’m asking: where you are from? from which town?
Now, if I will ask YOU, to tell me about your country, your town, yourself, what you will tell me?
Probably some exceptions, not the usual things which are often considered as “normal”.
Normal things mean boring for us.
But what is a norm in one place, doesn’t have to be a norm in other place.
So what you will tell me, unique things or usual things?

Let me know in the comment, what stereotypes about your country and people living in, you have known?

Take care and have a nice day.

Why I’ve started blogging

When I’m starting to write this post I don’t know how far it will go, so at the beggining I have to warn you it can be inappropriate story, especially if you are underage.

You have been warned.

In the section about me you can find what I’m writing about. In this post I’m going to clarify why it is like this.
I had no intentions to write about myself, but because some thoughts doesn’t give me peace and recently becoming even stronger and brings more anxiety I decided to throw it out from myself. I’m treating blogging as a kind of therapy, posting my thoughts about things which are important for me, but not personal things about my life.
I’m not convinced does internet is a right place to share facts from personal life, but I’m struggling last days more and more and feel like I have nothing to lose, so here I’m.
From the other hand all informations I may put here are not secret, that someone can use it against me, but still personal.
I hope to feel relief after publishing it, will that happen, I have no idea…
It’s highly possible I’ll be jumping from one topic to another and losing sense, but I hope not.
In India 15th of August is Independence day(more informations about it you can find here on The Shining Gem’s post
or here on beyOnd woRds_ post
In my country we have two different holidays at same time, what brought me one thought, If I’m celebrating everyday, am I celebrating at all? When you are doing something everyday it becomess to be a norm, which means normal. So I should say, that I’m never celebrating, instead I’m trying to appreaciate every single day of my life enjoying of surrounding world as much as possible. But it have been almost a year since I can’t find peace. There was something terrible happened in my life, made my own world collapsed for several months. I can’t stop asking myself why some things in my life had happened, I can’t find explanation. Some of my posts are attempts to find out of how some things are working and is it possible it was this or not…
Moving more back into past, few years ago I was about to start my life once again and I had plans to move to Canada. Why there? Because it’s far enough for a new beggining and I have a friend there, so it makes things easy, because if you don’t know something, you have someone trusted to ask about it.
I didn’t go only because I’ve met the girl and started relationship. But it wasn’t just a girl, it was girl, which I knew from childhood, so I thought, she is the person I know really well…
Rest of the story might be to personal but also might be necessary to explain few important things.
She was about to quit her marriage, which wasn’t very well, they didn’t lived together everything was about to be the end and she was the one to start our relationship, so I felt justified.
I’ve broken one of my own rules, dating with married woman, it’s bad, no matter what is happening in the marriage, don’t get in between…
They’ve finished it and we could be together…
After few month I found out she was cheating on me, we have spoken, I gave her second chance and everything seemed to be good.
When I said good I mean really good, at least this is how I saw that. But from the other hand it seem that she also was happy with me, because we got married last year, April 30th…
Less than half year she met another guy and exactly six months after our wedding, our married was destroyed. I was trying to fix it, even when I haven’t done anything wrong, or if I did, she never told me about it. But for real and seriously I have no idea what could I’ve done wrong, I’m respectful, not beating, not drinking, I’m not addicted to hazard or anything… her family also new me since childhood, so we had good relations.
With my wife we was traveling, we had great plans etc. I broughts flowers and took care of her and maybe I was just doing too much. Yes, it’s possible, if you’re doing too much the other person can have enough and feel bad about that. But what you expect from your partner is conversation. If something is wrong, let your partner know about that, no one is a mind reader.
At this moment you can think, what’s your problem man? those things happens…
That’s right and if it end on this I would be angry, sad and disappointed by some time, but the worst thing was who she met. The guy was kind of manipulator with some psychological problems and he was convincing her, that she is possessed…
You can think how this is even possible, that she was with this kind of person and even today I have no idea about that. In result she attempted to commit suicide by three times…
Somwhere in between all this happenings she asked me to move out…
I was still trying to take care about her and fix our marriage.
When you getting marriage you swaer to be with your beloved to the end of your days and for me promises at all are sacred, you can’t break given word…
It is so naive from my side, of course people are not keeping their promises…
But it doesn’t mean, that I have to be the same as others.

From all this stressful situations I’ve lost around 80-90 pounds, I was looking really bad…
You can see me before and today, writing this post, fortunatelly I don’t have any picture from around 6-8 months ago, when was the worst time for me…

In our wedding anniversary I gave up completely. I had wrote few posts before, but it was still to early for that, so we can say I’ve started probably in June.
So now you can find out what makes some of my posts a little bit bitter…

Now I’m waiting for divorce case in october, which makes me think about all of this more and more everyday, because I don’t know what is right to do.
When the judge will ask is it true that is no one fault our marriage ends I can say it’s not, because as I believe you have to pay the price for your actions, but from the other side I’m affraid that she can attemp to commit suicide again.
Someone can say, why to worry about this, it’s not my problem anymore, but we are talking about other human beign and it’s deffinately inappropriate to the guilt.
So this is it…

I always wanted to provide happy life (as everyone of course, only for each person it can have different meaning). Live with beloved wife traveling together and fulfill eachother, support eachother have someone to miss for when we cannot be together etc. very simple things. Now my faith in it is damaged and I’m trying to rebuilt it.
It’s one of conditions before I will meet someone new, the other is divorce.
You can say I’m complaining, but am I? What I’m doing right now is trying to throw out all the pain from the inside…
Now I’m 34 years old and I see a lot of things the same as before and the same as I was much younger. In my age it’s more like I’m realise where I am in my life and see more while looking back into past, I can see how fast life is going and I’m more serious about my life. What can be interesting, I don’t think about myself as about old or middle age man and deffinately I don’t feel it at all. Last time I even thought about how it is, that some men hitting to much younger girls and by some part it can be this, because when I’m talking with 20 years old girl I don’t feel the difference between us and I have to realize that it’s 14 years! But I remember when I was about 20 years old, someone 34 years old seemed as at least middle age to me. It’s interesting how perspective can change with time.
I was always taking life in positive way and it didn’t changed, even when I know World never will be a perfect place, I’m still trying to make it better, but I’m trying speak to a reason which is harder than speak to emotions. All the “great leaders” who made masses to follow them had spoke to emotions and as more primal and stronger emotions they had spoken to, as greater masses they moved.
World without money and wars is theoretically possible, theoretically…
Still if we cannot do it perfect, we can work to do it better.
Finally this post doesn’t seem to be inappropriate, which is good.
As is kind of relief for me, I hope you can find it as helpful somehow for you.

At the end I would like to thank those bloggers who are reading each my posts, I appreciate it.
Thank You.

Set your mood

It’s another post inspired by someone else post (what a great writing).
This time is from My book life by Naya

It’s important and helpful to organize your day schedule well and you can find useful tips for it on Naya post, but there is something more what I want to add.

When you are about to go to bed, set your mood positive, you can do a lot of things with your thoughts. You can think about next day, or day, which just passed or anything as long it will set you positive. We can be tired or have many problems, stress etc. but for the short moment before you go to sleep, think about something good, it can change a lot.

The second thing is the thing what you are doing in the morning. Who like to wake up with the thought it’s another busy day (school or job)? You can set reminder in your phone with something positive to think about it when you just open your eyes, it really gives energy and set good mood. Find pleasure in small things and learn to admire surrounding beauty.
Someone can say, how to expect any beauty around, when you are at war or any other bad happening, but sometimes these small things you can find around you, may help you to survive bad times. Talk to people who had experience terrible things and ask them about it. During bad bad times, the hope can be like a miracle.

Third thing is to spread your positive mood and energy and it will come back to you.
Small things can do a lot, it’s enough to smile kindly to someone to make this person feel nice. You will find out how nice, when you will recive smile back to you too.

Ok, now it’s a little summary:
1 – think about nice things before bed time
2 – think about nice things when you wake up
3 – smile, it cost you nothing and can make big difference

I would like if you let me know after few days, how it works for you 🙂
Take care.

The future’s past

I woke up and opened my eyes to see, that the yesterday’s tomorrow is today.
When yesterday was today, expiration date seemed to be far away.
But now, today is the future and tomorrow will be today.
We are living now, always now, always today, there is no other option.
Our perspective is small and makes hard for us to see small changes happening around in present reality.
Future smoothly turnes into past, but we still are trapped in present day.
Every moment of life is happening now.
Distant future of tomorrow can be disappointing for the people, who thought about it yesterday.
When I’m looking back into years and centuries, I see people were expecting so different World of today.
What we are expecting from tomorrow?
Tomorrow will be today, next day…


“Real knowledge is to know the extent of one’s ignorance” – Confucius

I wonder, what does it mean to be a human?
Through all history, each generation of mankind thought about their own generation as of the greatest one.
It seems, that ignorance supported with self confidence leads to self imagination of being the best. After Dunning-Kruger effect, we can divide awareness on four stages.
1 – unaware of self incompetence
2 – aware of self incompetence
3 – unaware of self competence
4 – aware of self competence

If we apply these stages to our awareness of primal instincts and ability to control it, we will receive this scheme:
1 – unaware of being under influence of primal instincts and inability to control it
2 – aware of fact, that we are under the influence of primal instincts, but still unable to control it
3 – aware of primal instincts, but unaware ability to control it
4 – aware of primal instincts and being able to control it

Where we are now? Probably at stage 2. We know, that primal instincts do exists and have impact on our everyday life, but are we able to control it? When I’m looking at people, on this what is happening around the World, or at myself, I think we are far away from it. Firstable it’s hard to take control over primal instincts. Enough to look back, how much we changed since known history. Sciencehas been changed, technology has been changed, our lifestyle has been changed, but our behaviour and reasons of our acts did not. Are we smarter than few thousands years ago? In some areas of life and science, yes. But when I’m looking on it like this: thousands of years passed and we are still competitive instead of being cooperative. We still have some small and shallow reasons to make this World not friendly for living. It’s only one Planet in our solar system, which gives life friendly conditions, and what we are doing with it? How we are using it? Do we respect what we have received?
How do we are using all natural sources?
How do we treat each other?
How do we treat, even ourselves?
I think, that our behaviour is basing on few factors and it will not change quickly.
People call for something, when it’s about themselves, but ignore it when it’s about others. People seems to like utopian ideas, forgeting it’s impossible. There is no such things as freedom and justice, there are only compromises. Even compromises are hard to stand for people, but it’s probably, because, they don’t understand some of them, how it is like this and why. We are selfish, yes we are. We see our needs, our feelings, our memories and everything what we can call our in so different way than any other person, but it’s natural. We all are different.
Let’s go back to freedom and justice in only one example.
If it’s allowed to smoke cigarettes, one person is smoking, but the other one don’t like it, can we call this is freedom and justice. It’s small and simple example, but I think it’s enough to point how much our life is about compromises and smart solving problems and if we will be unable to solve small problems like this, then how we gonna deal with big ones?
Primal instintcs was important for people for long time, which was helpful to save their lives. Even today some of those instincts are important, but I think, it would be good to learn how to control it and use properly when it’s needed.
I know it’s easy to say and it might be another utopian idea, but I think it’s worth to try becoming better, even when we know it’s impossible to become the perfect.
There is a lot of things to keep in mind, like trying too hard can lead you to frustration…
Does it make any sense, or I’m talking crap?
I don’t know, maybe I’m too tired, maybe it’s just too hot and I’m writing in some kind of insanity…
How can I know that, if I will not confront it with others?
Or does it possible, to know you are right by yourself?
Is it not just another time when it’s about ignorance and confidence?

One day in The Eden…

For me real journey, have to be an adventure…

I was reading some posts about Cornwall and solo traveling, what brought back some memories, which I would like to share with you.
But first, here you have links to mentioned posts:
simply solo-travelling

When you don’t have time for holidays, you can go for one day trip, only remember to make this day as best as possible.
Few years ago it was during hot days of summer.
I had only one day to visit Cornwall, so I knew I have to do my best, to not waste a single second. I’ve checked everything before my journey. But check doesn’t mean to be prepared…
I bought tickets for night train, which was leaving London around 11pm and after seven hours reaches St. Austell. So I had whole night to sleep and full day for visiting The Eden Project.
St. Austell is a small town and at 6am everything is close there, so I had some time to catch first bus to The Eden Project, which I spend on sightseeing neighborhood. There was only one little problem, the only map I had, it was map of Cornwall, not even of St. Austell and had nothing to do with accuracy. On this map you could see lettering St. Austell and little dot pointing the town. Fortunately I’m good in finding way back or where is any direction (north, south, west, east), so even with this map I was able to find everything I wanted to see and what most important, way to the bus.

Bus to EP was filled by people working there, which most of them are volunteers and students. When I got there, it was still early and tropical bioms were closed for turists. The crew was still working inside, taking care of the plants etc. There is nothing to be worry about, because outside garden it’s really big and interesting.

At this picture is only part of outside garden, however I think it’s enough to see how big it is. You can also see some people right there, to have comparative scale.

This, what I wanted to see the most was the bioms and it was very surprising what I saw inside…  I have seen some ponds or pools inside greenhouses before, but here it is like someone wanted to put whole World in one place, so you can see waterfalls or houses stylized for the places of origin of plants.


You can also try juice from Baobab there, or go to the restaurant, which serve food taken from mediterranean biome’s plants.


On this picture you can see cultivation of grapes and olives (in background).
My camera wasn’t fully charged, so I don’t have a lot of pictures, but I kept my memories.

When I was going back from The Eden Project, I’ve met one man from Scotland and at first seconds when he spoked to me, I’ve thought he speaks different language. He was on his holidays in Cornwall, so different than Scotland as he said.

It was early evening when I decided to go to the Charlestown’s beach. Near to harbor you can find some caves, which are very tempting to go inside. And that’s what I did, I went inside one deeper cave. From the inside of the cave, Sea is heard differently, also you can find some shells, only you have to remember, that Sea level can increase and it can happen really quickly… When water forced me to leave this place I went for a little shopping, because I still had few hours to my train.
At the station I met Ron Choong, an American born in Malaysia, he also was in The Eden Project and he was waiting for the same train. It was lucky for both of us, to meet eachother, because the train was delayed for a long time and we had interesting conversation.
Sometimes it’s nice to travel alone, but sometimes in situations like this when you are waiting for train, plane or whatever, it’s good to have right companion.
Take care.

The cult of body

I’m looking back in the past and I see, that some things didn’t change so much til present day. We like to think about our selves as inteligent and open minded generation, but how we really are? In ancient Greece people like to admire human body, beautiful proportions and shapes. Even in medival time, people had their definition of a beauty which referred directly to the body. Today we have some competitions where people are chosing most beautiful man or woman, but only in context of the body.
If I will treat my body as a temple, shouldn’t I care more of, what this temple is all about?
Aren’t we pay too much attention to our bodies as body by itself?
I know some people, some companies are making good business on it, but there are people suffering because they’re trying to follow after the body cult.
A lot of complexes and some disorders like anorexia can have effort even in adult life.
So what to say, when it’s about childhood or youthful age.
Who you are by your mind, define your value more, than who you are by your body or job. How you are thinking have much more matter than how you look.
Are we so shallow to see only bodies, or can we look deeper and see human?
How far we are from our primal instincts…?